They say it's your birthday...

Yes ladies & gentleman, it's my birthday today!!! Hooray!! Ha, ha. I really don't care about my birthday. I kind of think they are stupid once you get older. It only reminds you that your one year closer to being more wrinkled, saggy and blessed with white hair... Anyway I hate getting older, I don't want to get old. I'm kind of afraid of it truly. You listen to people that are older and they have all of these stories about how their bodies don't work right and their minds aren't as sharp, so why do we celebrate this. Stupid!!!

Last night we went to my brother Ryan house and had a great dinner. They even got me a birthday cake. I was so not expecting that! We stayed there late playing games, it was way fun. Aron brought his girls over so I could drive them to school and Marquie was the first person of the day to wish me a Happy B-day. She even beat my good husband. I don't expect many calls today. I have 9 brothers & sisters and you'd think I would get lots of calls, but even my parents won't call. This used to hurt a lot in the past, but really I don't care. Maybe deep down inside I care cause I'm writing about it ain't I......


I am going to lunch with my cute husband, then I will celebrate tonight by going to my husbands soccer game. Wow, I am a party girl!!! Like I said, just another year older.

Cleaning Day Again...

It's Thursday. What to do on Thursday, oh, lets clean the house again. I worked so hard last week getting my house clean I actually relaxed and felt good sitting down and relaxing. But it's time to do it all over again!!! I haven't been feeling very well so I don't have a lot of energy and I really don't feel like doing very much, but I know that I need to get it done, especially laundry!!! I hate doing laundry. Well I better get cracking..... Oh and once I get my house in order than I get to tear down wall paper and paint my kitchen. That is 1 thing I am excited for!!!!

Up 4 a trip to Vegas anyone?

Well not me! I really don't like Vegas. It's dirty and all I want to do is play slots with money that I don't have to throw away. But I went there this past weekend for a Tax class about S Corps. I was leaving on Thursday. I should have known that this trip was in trouble on Tuesday, because I started to feel really tired. I knew I was coming down with something, I was hoping I could just kick it. Well Thursday came & I was getting worse everyday. So to make myself get better, I went and sat in a freezing cold room for 8 hours. Now if you know me I am a very HOT person. I like cold, but this room was probably 65 degrees and the air just blew right on me. I was trying to cover myself up with the table cloth on the table. I even scoped out the room for any table cloths not being used, but to no luck. For our 1 hour lunch break, Cammy and I went outside and sat on a concrete loading dock in the HOt sun! I was out there for about 20 minutes and still never broke a sweat, oh I didn't mention that is was 109 degrees outside. I couldn't touch the concrete with my bare hands or toes. I let the back of my legs touch and burned them. Really, truly you could have fried an egg out there!! So it was time to go back and I was just getting warm.

So on the last day Saturday, I brought Cammy's beach towel and used it like a blanket. I was still cold!!! I am sure some of the coldness was from being sick, but there were more than 30 people in the room and I was not the only one covering up with the table cloths!!! I wanted to play slots really bad. I love playing slot machines, I just would like to play with pretend money and then when I win I get real money!!! ha,ha... Well Cammy didn't want to play slots or do anything to that and she was quite boring. So for distraction we went swimming!!!

Now here is the tale of the swim!!! We went to our room after a yucky dinner and tried to open our door. We couldn't open it. Cammy kept trying over & over. I finally told her that I was leaving her to go to the front desk. I guess she thought she had room key magic or something because she wouldn't just accept the reality that the key didn't work. So we headed back downstairs and the front desk told us the we had demagnetised the key and since my name was not on the registration they would give us a new one. Security would have to let us in & go back up and wait for them. So we did. We looked like to idiots sitting outside our door. Anyway they finally came and asked for my ID and what in the room would have my name on it. So they opened the door and saw that it was true. No big deal right? Accept, he told me i had to get a working key from the front desk. I called down and the bell desk would have to bring it to me, & that was going to be about 45 minutes. So we waited, finally they came and Cammy & I headed for the pool. Dun DUn DUNNNNN!!

When we got there the lights were out and nobody was at the pool. I thought that nobody wanted to swim and everyone was just gambling. I went and asked a worker at the food counter and he said go ahead, ya ya. So Cammy & I jumped in happily. Withing 5 minutes a cop on a bike was at the pool yelling 'GET OUT NOW'. He was very rude. We tried to explain that we asked but he didn't care. He just kept going on about how much it coast to drain the pool!! wah wah wah!!! He asked for our room number and we freely gave it and Cammy asked why, he responded 'because i need to write it up and report it'. OOOHHHH MY. No not a report, Cammy flipped, she is a big chicken, worried that we were going to get kicked out or fined or something. I didn't think it was a big deal, and Cammy admitted that if we got a fine or something she would go fight it. GO Cammy!! Anyway walking back in the casino, now wet and stupid looking made us feel so much better.

Anyway, we had a decent time, the class was way too hard and over my head and I was sick!!! When I got home to my super safe house and my warm husband I collapsed into tears of 'I don't feel good' and he put me to bed. So today is really the first day that I have felt much better. I am still a little tired but I did get some appetite back. Yea thought cause I lost 3.5 pounds in 5 days. Too bad it will come back on with the next big bowl of ice cream I eat!!!

WEEKENDS

You know, some weekends are harder than others. I let Madilynn have a sleep over with her cousin Aspen on Saturday night and then took her to church with us on Sunday. Everything went great except I was very grouchy. Madi and Aspen got along quite good, but MJ felt very left out. He really doesn't have any friends his age that are boys. He gets along with some boys but nobody really is into the stuff he is. He loves pirates right now and Yu-gi Oh. Most boys he hangs out with really aren't into this. So I had to keep getting mad at MJ for little fights that he would cause, but it was because he felt left out. We are going to hold off on sleep overs for a while.

But my wonderful, fabulous funny, hard working husband finally got my sprinklers fixed. One less hassle for me to worry about. He got me in a better mood also and helped me calm down. I have so much in my head it's not even funny!!! I hate feeling overwhelmed!! Today is Monday and I am going to have a great week!! See positive already!!!

Kids????

You know there are some days that I wonder why I even have children. They make me so frustrated. I want them to do well in everything they do. I am struggling with MJ to read instead of watching TV. Madilynn just won't help. I don't know if I just haven't taught her or if she is just playing the cute card. I just sat with her for 30 minutes directing her to clean her room. I was not going to help her. She doddles and played and tried to change her clothes. I just wanted to jump in and clean the room my self. I have enough work around this house that I can't relax until it is done. Then and only then do I feel that I can play with them or read with them or relax and watch a movie with them. You know that saying about do waste your time cleaning or doing laundry because you'll miss your kids growing up. Well that is true, but I just can't relax or waste time as I see it until I feel the house is put together. I haven't dusted for weeks now so I can spend more time with my kids this summer and I look at how dusty my house is and I just get shaky. I truly have to take a deep breath and look the other way. Now I am on a cleaning rampage and both my kids are overwhelmed with my attitude and yelling!!

I don't know, both my kids say that I yell to much and I truly am trying to stop. I wish there really was a chill pill I could take sometimes!! I just hope that I'm not ruining my relationship with MJ & Madi. I don't want them to grow up and say stuff like 'all my mom did was yell at us and tell us to clean, clean, clean'. And just think, I think about bringing another kid into this so called good life. I must be crazy!!!

ps. I hate TV!! I was so hungry last night @ about 9:00 and every commercial that came on had to do with some kind of food. Stupid TV!!!!!

I don't know???

Right now Max jr is getting his summer tutoring. He really is enjoying it. He is also going to Challenger school for summer in the morning. He is doing a lot. I ran around this morning with taking Max, Rylee & Marquie to school. Came home, got nothing done but my garden and flowers watered and the turned around and picked them up. I did surprise the kids with Mcd's today. They were really happy. But at Mcd's I walked into the back to get a table, the kids were playing already, and some lady was screaming yelling!! Too loud I thought, I was going to go rescue the kid, but it turns out that the lady was yelling at another Mom, saying I'm in a stressful situation and my kids aren't perfect like yours... I really don't know what was going on but she was really out of control. The other mom told her she was embarrassing herself and that just got her even more mad. The crazy mom packed up there food and left. She should have just moved tables and calmed down. I hope I never get like that!!

So I am getting ready to straighten out my downstairs. The laundry room gets so messy so fast. The basement just seems to never get picked up. It drives me crazy.

This summer is turning out to be good though. I am busy with stuff, friends, kids activities. Lots of swimming. Right now Max is waiting to see if he gets a project for Royal Coatings. I really hope he gets it. It won't be much work for him, lots of supervising, but not a lot of hard work. But he should make some good money, enough to help us get through the job change. Anyway I'm rambling. I have some goals this summer I want to get done, I hope I can get them done. Really more than anything I want to start running again. My feet are getting better. They still hurt sometimes and I'm afraid that if I start again too soon they will get worse. I just hope I can run soon!!! It always makes me feel better!!!

Wow... what a trip

Well I just got back from our family trip. We went to Washington DC & New York. I LOVED DC!! I could move there tomorrow! I loved the history, the weather, the town, the people and the intrigue!!! It truly has a feeling there of American history and I could feel the passion that our ancestors had for a truly free America!! Now New York is a different story. I really didn't care for it. It was really dirty, and if you know me, I don't like dirt!! Anyway the people were OK, some were nice, other were rude!! I like the buildings and the architect of it all. The statue of Liberty was cool and Times Square was really amazing. I wish we could have stayed there a little longer. I didn't really get to see much of Central Park, but what I did see was really pretty. Did you know that there have been more than 200 movies made there in the park, the most recent was Spiderman 3. My highlight was Disney's Beauty & the Beast on Broadway. Madilynn and Max were just amazed with it. Both of there mouths were open watching the whole time!! Max jr really enjoyed it. Madi just loved Belle. I will add some pictures when I figure out how to do it.

It was a great trip the kids were great and I'm really glad I got to go. I think everyone should experience it at least once. New York was just a little too busy for my liking. Maybe I would go back if I didn't have 2 young kids. I would like to see other things there.

1st time

Today is the first day of my blog. My friend Allyson had a blog page and I love reading it. It's like a little sneak peak into her life. A lot of the times I can relate to her. So she told me this would be easy and here I go trying it. I hope to maintain this and have a fun time letting all of you sneak a peak into my life.