You know there are some days that I wonder why I even have children. They make me so frustrated. I want them to do well in everything they do. I am struggling with MJ to read instead of watching TV. Madilynn just won't help. I don't know if I just haven't taught her or if she is just playing the cute card. I just sat with her for 30 minutes directing her to clean her room. I was not going to help her. She doddles and played and tried to change her clothes. I just wanted to jump in and clean the room my self. I have enough work around this house that I can't relax until it is done. Then and only then do I feel that I can play with them or read with them or relax and watch a movie with them. You know that saying about do waste your time cleaning or doing laundry because you'll miss your kids growing up. Well that is true, but I just can't relax or waste time as I see it until I feel the house is put together. I haven't dusted for weeks now so I can spend more time with my kids this summer and I look at how dusty my house is and I just get shaky. I truly have to take a deep breath and look the other way. Now I am on a cleaning rampage and both my kids are overwhelmed with my attitude and yelling!!
I don't know, both my kids say that I yell to much and I truly am trying to stop. I wish there really was a chill pill I could take sometimes!! I just hope that I'm not ruining my relationship with MJ & Madi. I don't want them to grow up and say stuff like 'all my mom did was yell at us and tell us to clean, clean, clean'. And just think, I think about bringing another kid into this so called good life. I must be crazy!!!
ps. I hate TV!! I was so hungry last night @ about 9:00 and every commercial that came on had to do with some kind of food. Stupid TV!!!!!
I don't know, both my kids say that I yell to much and I truly am trying to stop. I wish there really was a chill pill I could take sometimes!! I just hope that I'm not ruining my relationship with MJ & Madi. I don't want them to grow up and say stuff like 'all my mom did was yell at us and tell us to clean, clean, clean'. And just think, I think about bringing another kid into this so called good life. I must be crazy!!!
ps. I hate TV!! I was so hungry last night @ about 9:00 and every commercial that came on had to do with some kind of food. Stupid TV!!!!!
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I have been thinking about that recently, what my kids will say about or remember about me when they grow up. I am afraid it won't be anything good.
Maybe I should try the sitting and directing with the girls in cleaning their room. I think after about 2 minutes I would be absolutely crazy though.
You get shaky when you see the dust in your house? It's a surprise you haven't had a full blown seizure when you have come into mine!
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