YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!

One of the most horrible things about being a MOM is having your child be sick with the flu!! Max Jr has been sick for 8 days now, diarrhea & throw up!! The two things I hate most!! I thought he was getting better, but this morning I peeked in on him, he was still sleeping, everything was looking good. Then he got up, came to my room and told me to come here. I did and he showed me where he had thrown up during the night! All down the side of the bed onto the carpet and then onto some of his favorite toys. YUCK!!! Now I had to clean it up, touch it and smell it!! If you know me I don't like dirty stuff, it's hard for me to change dirty diapers!!! I couldn't even throw out the toys. I hate this part of being a mom!! And I'm tired of this. I have been stuck at home now for 8 days! I tried to go to church yesterday but Max was too sick and needed to come home. Oh I didn't mention that Madilynn is now throwing up! Does this mean 8 or more days dealing with this?????!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

The only thing is MJ has not eaten anything this whole time, 8 days. Last night he had a couple bites of potatoes and some bread with butter. Than later before bed he had a very small scoop of chocolate ice cream, but none of it stayed down!! I am taking him to the doctor to get him checked out! I hope he has an answer and a miracle pill!!! Oh sorry I think I was daydreaming there!!! Maybe one day I will get to see my friends again and what life is like outside of this house!!!!

Blessings

I've been stressing over something. Very worried! I've been praying to my Heavenly Father, asking for His help, His guidance and for peace. Today I was blessed with peace. I truly know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ live and hear me. I am so thankful that I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ with me daily. I'm blessed with so much in my life, a healthy family(although they are sick right now) a good home, a hard working & loving husband. But most of all I feel loved. Loved by my family, my friends and Heavenly Father. Everyday I try & bring a little sunshine to people I meet or to those around me. There is a wonderful lady in my church ward that always has a smile on her face, I have never seen her mad or angry and I want to carry this through me to others. Don't get me wrong, I still have bad days, but I like myself and the world so much more when I'm sharing a smile.

We all have struggles, we all can get through them, but how we do it is the real answer. I feel grateful that there is someone I can turn to in times of trial & needs. One day I will return to their presence and I will never be able to express the gratitude for all that I have or have been blessed with.

Just another day

Not a lot happening here. I got my laundry done yesterday, I'm putting it away this morning. I love when I have the laundry done cause I feel that I'm in control of my monster. I'm going shopping with my sister-in-law Mandi, who is so cute and loves to shop. I am redecorating Madilynn's room with the help from her Grandma. She bought Madi a new twin bed and now that means redo to her. She started buying things & told me I better come or I won't get any input. I'm worried about the colors, I just don't see how I can make it girly for Madi. I really shouldn't complain, it is going to look very cute thanks to Mandi's help. So I'm off to spend money I don't have. I think she is paying me back, I hope!!! So I will be careful with what I buy. First I have to come up with some sort of theme, then get paint and fabric, and then what else I have no idea. Cross your fingers. Oh did I mention that all of this is for her birthday?....That's not till November!! Another project for me to do when I was planning on painting my kitchen.

By the way, I'm not a good painter, what am I thinking?!!!

Mini Vacation

Thursday we left and went to Flaming Gorge. Max's Parents have a little house there. It's not the prettiest thing, but it keeps you dry. It was so much fun this time. We got there about 8:00 at night and the kids played and we sat out on the porch just talking with our best friends Cammy & Aron. The next morning we didn't rush to get up and we had cereal for breakfast and then went out fishing. We went to our favorite fishing hole and caught 20 fish, no joke. But is got windy & cold and I told Max that I was done, the kids were already in the truck watching a movie so we wrapped up. No kidding as we are walking back to the truck it starts to rain, we quite at the right time. We went back to the house and played games while it rained and thunder around us! I loved it, nothing to close to scare me but fun to listen too. We made a really easy and good dinner, then played more card games. Saturday morning we got up and went out to the lake with the boat. There were maybe 10 people there, no one was there, not even in the camping areas. It was kind of strange, but super nice. We didn't have any wait for docking the boat.

Max & Rylee went together on the tube while daddy was very careful, but both Rylee & Max kept wanting to go faster! They are crazy nuts!! Rylee is super nuts, her dad couldn't go fast enough. It didn't help that her Mom was giving her daddy evil stares of be careful!! I don't blame her, it is a little nerve racking. Anyway we just had a great time. We came home Saturday night, we all sat around watching a movie and just had a great family weekend.

My trauma was that while daddy Max was pulling Aron in the tube, (Max & Aron take turns driving and trying to get the other person off the tube in the most craziest way, last year Max dislocated a toe) he had made waves and was crossing them, he warned us about the bumps but I wasn't holding on very well and my right bump check hit the side of the dashboard thing and got really hurt, I have a very bad bone bruise. It is so bad I could hardly sit in the truck on the way home. Anyway, we never seem to come home from there without something happening.

Madi did get sick with a fever, but today she is much better. It's sad when she is sick, her sparkle in her eyes is gone!! By the way even she went out on the tube twice. Once with Cammy & then again with her daddy, she's a speed nut. She love rides at Disneyland, lagoon, you name it! Madi & her dad are so much alike. And she is truly a daddy's girl!!

Next time I have to remember my camera!!

Good Morning

I hate mornings. I hate getting out of bed, I hate when my kids get out of bed first. I hate it!! If my kids beat me getting up, which Madilynn always does, cause she is out about 6:30 or 7:00 the demands just start right away and I get no peace!!! I look at my house and think of everything I can do today to get out of all of the housework I have to accomplish. It makes me crazy!! Funny thing though is once I get started I love cleaning. I'm crazy I know!!! I really miss running in the morning and I got the OK yesterday from my doctor to start slowly, but I have been to tired to even start. Starting the day off with a good run, coming home & know what I just accomplished was great. I just need to get off my lazy butt and go.
Man I'm grouchy today! Sorry..

They say it's your birthday...

Yes ladies & gentleman, it's my birthday today!!! Hooray!! Ha, ha. I really don't care about my birthday. I kind of think they are stupid once you get older. It only reminds you that your one year closer to being more wrinkled, saggy and blessed with white hair... Anyway I hate getting older, I don't want to get old. I'm kind of afraid of it truly. You listen to people that are older and they have all of these stories about how their bodies don't work right and their minds aren't as sharp, so why do we celebrate this. Stupid!!!

Last night we went to my brother Ryan house and had a great dinner. They even got me a birthday cake. I was so not expecting that! We stayed there late playing games, it was way fun. Aron brought his girls over so I could drive them to school and Marquie was the first person of the day to wish me a Happy B-day. She even beat my good husband. I don't expect many calls today. I have 9 brothers & sisters and you'd think I would get lots of calls, but even my parents won't call. This used to hurt a lot in the past, but really I don't care. Maybe deep down inside I care cause I'm writing about it ain't I......


I am going to lunch with my cute husband, then I will celebrate tonight by going to my husbands soccer game. Wow, I am a party girl!!! Like I said, just another year older.

Cleaning Day Again...

It's Thursday. What to do on Thursday, oh, lets clean the house again. I worked so hard last week getting my house clean I actually relaxed and felt good sitting down and relaxing. But it's time to do it all over again!!! I haven't been feeling very well so I don't have a lot of energy and I really don't feel like doing very much, but I know that I need to get it done, especially laundry!!! I hate doing laundry. Well I better get cracking..... Oh and once I get my house in order than I get to tear down wall paper and paint my kitchen. That is 1 thing I am excited for!!!!

Up 4 a trip to Vegas anyone?

Well not me! I really don't like Vegas. It's dirty and all I want to do is play slots with money that I don't have to throw away. But I went there this past weekend for a Tax class about S Corps. I was leaving on Thursday. I should have known that this trip was in trouble on Tuesday, because I started to feel really tired. I knew I was coming down with something, I was hoping I could just kick it. Well Thursday came & I was getting worse everyday. So to make myself get better, I went and sat in a freezing cold room for 8 hours. Now if you know me I am a very HOT person. I like cold, but this room was probably 65 degrees and the air just blew right on me. I was trying to cover myself up with the table cloth on the table. I even scoped out the room for any table cloths not being used, but to no luck. For our 1 hour lunch break, Cammy and I went outside and sat on a concrete loading dock in the HOt sun! I was out there for about 20 minutes and still never broke a sweat, oh I didn't mention that is was 109 degrees outside. I couldn't touch the concrete with my bare hands or toes. I let the back of my legs touch and burned them. Really, truly you could have fried an egg out there!! So it was time to go back and I was just getting warm.

So on the last day Saturday, I brought Cammy's beach towel and used it like a blanket. I was still cold!!! I am sure some of the coldness was from being sick, but there were more than 30 people in the room and I was not the only one covering up with the table cloths!!! I wanted to play slots really bad. I love playing slot machines, I just would like to play with pretend money and then when I win I get real money!!! ha,ha... Well Cammy didn't want to play slots or do anything to that and she was quite boring. So for distraction we went swimming!!!

Now here is the tale of the swim!!! We went to our room after a yucky dinner and tried to open our door. We couldn't open it. Cammy kept trying over & over. I finally told her that I was leaving her to go to the front desk. I guess she thought she had room key magic or something because she wouldn't just accept the reality that the key didn't work. So we headed back downstairs and the front desk told us the we had demagnetised the key and since my name was not on the registration they would give us a new one. Security would have to let us in & go back up and wait for them. So we did. We looked like to idiots sitting outside our door. Anyway they finally came and asked for my ID and what in the room would have my name on it. So they opened the door and saw that it was true. No big deal right? Accept, he told me i had to get a working key from the front desk. I called down and the bell desk would have to bring it to me, & that was going to be about 45 minutes. So we waited, finally they came and Cammy & I headed for the pool. Dun DUn DUNNNNN!!

When we got there the lights were out and nobody was at the pool. I thought that nobody wanted to swim and everyone was just gambling. I went and asked a worker at the food counter and he said go ahead, ya ya. So Cammy & I jumped in happily. Withing 5 minutes a cop on a bike was at the pool yelling 'GET OUT NOW'. He was very rude. We tried to explain that we asked but he didn't care. He just kept going on about how much it coast to drain the pool!! wah wah wah!!! He asked for our room number and we freely gave it and Cammy asked why, he responded 'because i need to write it up and report it'. OOOHHHH MY. No not a report, Cammy flipped, she is a big chicken, worried that we were going to get kicked out or fined or something. I didn't think it was a big deal, and Cammy admitted that if we got a fine or something she would go fight it. GO Cammy!! Anyway walking back in the casino, now wet and stupid looking made us feel so much better.

Anyway, we had a decent time, the class was way too hard and over my head and I was sick!!! When I got home to my super safe house and my warm husband I collapsed into tears of 'I don't feel good' and he put me to bed. So today is really the first day that I have felt much better. I am still a little tired but I did get some appetite back. Yea thought cause I lost 3.5 pounds in 5 days. Too bad it will come back on with the next big bowl of ice cream I eat!!!

WEEKENDS

You know, some weekends are harder than others. I let Madilynn have a sleep over with her cousin Aspen on Saturday night and then took her to church with us on Sunday. Everything went great except I was very grouchy. Madi and Aspen got along quite good, but MJ felt very left out. He really doesn't have any friends his age that are boys. He gets along with some boys but nobody really is into the stuff he is. He loves pirates right now and Yu-gi Oh. Most boys he hangs out with really aren't into this. So I had to keep getting mad at MJ for little fights that he would cause, but it was because he felt left out. We are going to hold off on sleep overs for a while.

But my wonderful, fabulous funny, hard working husband finally got my sprinklers fixed. One less hassle for me to worry about. He got me in a better mood also and helped me calm down. I have so much in my head it's not even funny!!! I hate feeling overwhelmed!! Today is Monday and I am going to have a great week!! See positive already!!!

Kids????

You know there are some days that I wonder why I even have children. They make me so frustrated. I want them to do well in everything they do. I am struggling with MJ to read instead of watching TV. Madilynn just won't help. I don't know if I just haven't taught her or if she is just playing the cute card. I just sat with her for 30 minutes directing her to clean her room. I was not going to help her. She doddles and played and tried to change her clothes. I just wanted to jump in and clean the room my self. I have enough work around this house that I can't relax until it is done. Then and only then do I feel that I can play with them or read with them or relax and watch a movie with them. You know that saying about do waste your time cleaning or doing laundry because you'll miss your kids growing up. Well that is true, but I just can't relax or waste time as I see it until I feel the house is put together. I haven't dusted for weeks now so I can spend more time with my kids this summer and I look at how dusty my house is and I just get shaky. I truly have to take a deep breath and look the other way. Now I am on a cleaning rampage and both my kids are overwhelmed with my attitude and yelling!!

I don't know, both my kids say that I yell to much and I truly am trying to stop. I wish there really was a chill pill I could take sometimes!! I just hope that I'm not ruining my relationship with MJ & Madi. I don't want them to grow up and say stuff like 'all my mom did was yell at us and tell us to clean, clean, clean'. And just think, I think about bringing another kid into this so called good life. I must be crazy!!!

ps. I hate TV!! I was so hungry last night @ about 9:00 and every commercial that came on had to do with some kind of food. Stupid TV!!!!!